Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Too Cold for Me

I dont know where you are as you read this Blog but here in Utah it is way to cold for me. It has been getting as low as the single digits at night and I seem to freeze no matter what I do. maybe it is just because I dont have any insulation on me any more but I dont know.

Any way, I hope you are all looking forward to summer as much as I am. as for my health, I have been feeling pretty good lately, I did have a cold yesterday but was able to get right back to work today. so far it hasnt been to bad.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Night Before Christmas

So it is Christmas Eve tonight and we are sitting watching TV waiting for bedtime. Christmas is very different when you only have one child at home and he is 14. The excitement is just not the same. My guess is that we will be sleeping in. Not like years in the past when we were awake at 1:00am to open presents.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

News from the CT Scan

Yesterday I went to the Doctor's for my CT scan. YIPPY !!! It was as good as I could have hoped for. He said the Liver looks clean and the Tumors in the Lymph Nodes are much smaller than they were before. He was pleased with the results and said that I am good to go for another 3 months.

3 Months of no doctor visits, no hospital stays, no medical crap. Just peace and living.

Here's hoping for a lot more than 3 months.

Also, I found this in the Fox news website today. very promising.

"The complete genetic codes of two human cancers have been mapped for the first time. The move could herald a medical revolution in which every tumor can be targeted with personalized therapy."

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Next Step

Tomorrow, (Wednesday) I go in for another CT scan to see how well the radiation treatments worked that I did. They like to wait a while after the treatments so that they can get a better idea of how well they worked. That is why I am just now able to go in and have the tests.
As for how I feel, well I feel great to be honest. I haven't felt this good in a long time. I am starting to just live life normally and do everything that I want to do without having to deal with any side affects.

I am going to fight this and I plan on being around for a long, long time. !!!!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

A Good Friend

A Good Friend shared this poem with me today.. I thought it was worth passing it along.


Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Joy and Heartbreak

First the Joy....

Matt and JayDee just found out that they are having a BOY!! We are soooooo excited!!! I am crying with joy just thinking about having a little baby boy running around the house. They don't have a name for him yet but when they do, I know it will be perfect. The Doctor says he is a very active little boy and he gave them a run for their money when they were trying to see what sex he was. He is going to be just like his daddy... run...

Now the Heartbreak...

Last night as Evan and I were getting ready for bed, Cody was in the shower singing to the radio. When he got out of the shower he was a little teary eyed and he said that he was listening to the song "Christmas shoes" and it reminded him of what was happening in his own life and it made him cry.

It breaks our hearts to have to see him go through this. No one should ever have to lose their dad, their best friend, when they are still so young. He needs his dad. How do you help your son cope with this? How am I going to cope with this?