Thursday, September 25, 2008

Deep In Thought...

This week I have been thinking a lot about Life, maybe because I have been given an extension of my own.

I don’t know exactly what I have been feeling, but I know that I don’t want to waste any bit of what life I have left.

The Doctors tell me it could be any where from 5 years to 30 years but that most likely I won’t live to be 80. I am okay with that but not to only have 5 years. I think they said that as a worst case scenario but I am much better off than that.

So the big question on my mind is what big thing am I going to do with my life. I don’t want to die and have them say, “Well he was a nice guy but really never did anything”.

I am not sure what I need to be doing, but know that something out there is calling for me and I need to find it. If any of you know what that might be, would you please let me know. (Smile)

So my goal is to find out what is driving me and why I have been given a second chance at life and more years to fulfill it.

More to Come…


MCK said...

We just wanted to let you know we love you so much and are so grateful for the blessing of knowing you and your dear family. You have brought so much joy, laughter and love into our lives that we can't imagine not knowing you! Mike is especially fond of you. {You get him and sometimes that is hard to do! wink wink} Thank you for your love and acceptance. You and your family have touched our hearts and souls in a way that we will never be the same. "Who can say if I've been changed for the better? Because I knew you...I have been changed for good." We are so glad that you are doing better and we continue to pray for you and your family.
XO Mike, Charity & Kadon

Sandie said...

Hummm Here I am commenting again, not sure this is my place, but this subject sparked my attention.

My first thought was the movie, The Bucket List, and doing all the things you always wanted to do. Life is too short to sit around and wait.

My second thought, was prayer! I know that lately, I have found myself in deep prayer. There is something very powerful about prayer. Maybe you are here to show all your family, friends and those you associate with that life is about living and to make the most of each day, one never knows what life will hand us, so live it wisely! Be happy! Good luck!

Shauna said...

I always remember that October 2007 Conference talk given by Steven E. Snow where he talks about how his mom died from cancer. He says, "As a family we learned, strangely enough, that cancer is a disease of love. It provides opportunities to mend fences, say goodbyes, and express love." I remember always thinking of cancer as this ugly, horrible monster. Then I heard him say that and I realized it was true. It does provide a lot of blessings. It makes you realize what is important. It give you focus in your life. It gives you time to say goodbye and really appreciate life.

I really related to what you said in your post. Cancer has made us, too, stop and see life differently. It makes special moments seem more precious and those "one day I'll do..." things more urgent. We hope you see 80, too. Think of all you can accomplish that really matters when you realize what really matters so clearly.

Thanks for your kind note on our blog. We really are fine. We just need a few days of rest and I think already we're on the mend. We are grateful for such good neighbors and friends.

Coleen said...
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Coleen said...

You may not feel that you have contributed anything real to life, but that's because you were not on the receiving end. You and Julie were the first ones to welcome me to the family. You did it with such love that I have been grateful to you ever since. You make me smile, laugh, and experience unconditional love. I'd say that's quite a contribution to others (I know I'm not the only one who has been a benefactor!)

I don't think any of us will ever move mountains, but if we can nudge another's heart, we have done well.

Keep up the recovery! Love, Coleen